27 March 2007

Grace has still been sleeping all night long. What an answered prayer. Lydia does well too but sometimes she sneaks into our bed. They go to bed around 8pm and almost like clockwork wake up at 7am.

I have really been struggling. Not so much with being here, or maybe it has more to do with the adjustment than I think, but with myself. I try to do too much. I want to get everything done and have so much to do. And I like being busy and doing projects. But I decided I needed to be happy with getting one or two things a day. Then I could relax and enjoy my family better. I do really well and then I come crashing down. I get frustrated, I get needy, I get upset, and I just can't handle things. I do well with the girls for a while but after four hours in the house, too hot outside till afternoon, they get whine and crabby and I am done. There is no where to go with them. Then I get selfish and need Josh to take over. He has been very helpful and good about giving me breaks. I stopped in the mists of my out of control state, I hate when I get like that, and spent time with God. I really think it is an attack from the devil. He knows how to get me which effects the whole family. It is discouragement. I have been praying against it. After my time with God and a break I feel much better and am ready to go again. Thank-you Lord!

Lydia has been enjoying having one little friend over at a time. Hopefully we will find the right match. So far they are quiet and maybe don't really understand. But Lydia is happy with them. It is pretty cute to see them playing in the sand, dirt. Lydia either has on her ballerina or her cowgirl boots.

Josh taught for the first time today. He really enjoyed it. He has put a lot of work into to it too. He is glad to be doing what he came to do. Josh has also found language helpers. It is a blind community across the street from our house. Him and Tim go each day for two hours.

It has defiantly been dry season here. Hot and dusty. Nothing like Nigeria, however, hot is hot. It is 90degrees in the house everyday. One day the wind blew all day and a layer of dust settled on everything. The rains should be starting any day though.

We have had power, electricity, for several days now. It has been great! But now we haven't had water for over 5 days. I guess we can't win. Thankfully the water comes on slowly every once and a while so we can fill up our water container. It brings us back to Mahula days, no water in the taps, bucket baths, flushing with used water. Oh, the blessing of water.