Ordained

Yesterday was so hard again with Achia waning away yet she played with her round toy again. It just made dad and all of say what are we doing?!

Agonizing.

Today Achia is pretty out and resting which is better. 

This morning I begged God to speak and assure us. I read psalm 139 and verse 16 says God ordained Achias days before she was born. Hedecided, He knows the day, He knew this would be the way. Nothing we did, didn't do or decided makes a difference, God ordained it. I rest in that truth.

Prayer from my friend:

Father,

You see every layer of this. You saw her as a child hungry, unseen, hurting. And You see her now surrounded, loved, held. So right now, I’m asking You rewrite what this feels like in their hearts.

Where it feels like she’s suffering, remind them this is not that. This is not neglect. This is not abandonment. This is a body gently shutting down as You prepare to bring her home.

God, cover Achia in peace. If there is any discomfort, ease it. If there is any fear, quiet it. Let her feel safe like she’s being carried, not left. Let her feel full in a way that has nothing to do with food full of love, full of warmth, full of You.

And God… for Mandy be so close to her right now. In every moment where her heart feels like it’s breaking in slow motion, hold her together. When her mind drifts back to what Achia endured before, and it mixes with what she’s seeing now, step in and separate those things. This is not suffering alone. This is being surrounded by love.

Give her peace when she feels helpless, rest when she can’t fix anything, and the quiet assurance that just being there is enough.

Let them feel You in the room steady, present, near. And God for her parents the ones who chose her, loved her, raised her please be their strength right now. This is not how a parent ever wants to love their child to sit and watch, to not be able to stop it.

When it feels like they’re letting her suffer, when old wounds try to rise up and speak lies, silence that with truth.

Remind them: they did not fail her. they gave her love, safety, and a home. And now they are loving her all the way to the end. Hold them together when the weight feels unbearable. Sit with them in the quiet, in the waiting, in the grief. Let Your presence fill that room thick, undeniable, gentle. Bring a peace that doesn’t make sense, but somehow steadies their hearts anyway. And in every moment that feels too heavy, whisper it again and again that you are there. She is safe. She is loved. She is going home.

Again I thank you for this beautiful family and allowing me to see your love in action through them. I love you and I give you all the praise.

In Jesus name Amen.