Adoption!

For those of you who have not heard our big new, we are adopted a baby!

The beginning of December Josh and I were on a date when I said to him, I think the Lord may be putting adoption on my heart again. He right away said then we should do it. I was surprised by this because Josh doesn't usually say yes right away and needs time with change. 

We both decided to ask and seek the Lord in the next week. I felt the Lord's peace and Him affirming. The last few months on a healing journey with my friend from a horrible childhood made me feel we could help and love another child. Josh had been going through the Experiencing God Bible study and knew God was leading him to adopted again. When Josh had his time with the Lord he read Psalm 127. Sons are a heritage from the Lord, children a reward from Him. Like arrows in the hands of a warrior are sons born in one's youth. Blessed is the man whose quiver is full of them. Josh felt the Lord confirmed we were to adopt a son.

So we met with Adoption Associates and where my oldest sister just happens to be the director. She was excited because they were about to put out an newletter asking for more adoptive families of children of any race. It is always a need. We felt the Lord sent us and she felt the Lord send us to them. It is absolutely the Lord! From there we got started on the process.

A week later when Lydia and Grace came home for Christmas break from college, we felt we should share with the kids. I think I was so consumed in the whirwind of Jesus calling us to adopting and starting the process in less than two weeks time, I didn't plan telling the kids very well and didn't expect the big, beautiful reaction.  So after supper Josh told the kids we had something to share with them, we feel the Lord leading us to adopt another child. The girls all screamed with joy!!! Makai was totally startled (he hates loud, unexpected noises) and started to cry. Luka was playing it cool.

Once we got Makai settled he was so excited and said his tears where happy tears. We shared and they asked questions. You see our kids have been asking since we adopted Makai for us to adopt again. Makai has been asking for the last year. He told Josh to pray for a baby and Josh prayed a simple, vague prayer. Makai said no, like this. "Dear God please give us a baby, amen. There Dad, it's gonna happen!" Don't you love childlike faith?! He also tells us he wants twins and I don't have faith that will happen - God knows my limits. The kids were talking about names (like Arrow from Ps. 127). Grace was texting her friends then she said this is the best Christmas present ever! I was very surprised our kids over the top joyful response. They were more excited than me. What amazing kids we have! We're all in.

I'll be honest my joy and peace hasn't always remained. Doing the homestudy in our last month in Michigan and transitioning back to Uganda has made me really question, can I do this? Sometimes I was almost panicking, I can't do this! I wanted to back out on fear and selfish feelings. But God continues to speak to me. It is true I can't do it, but God called us and He will do it in and through me. This is trusting in the Lord. Depending on Him in all my weaknesses. In my Experiencing God Bible Study it reminded me that you don't make decisions based on feeling, situations or experiences. You make decisions based on that is right in God's Word. Based on Truth. I was also encouraged by a book I heard about on the radio called Chosen. Building Your Family the way God Builds His. The author says we don't adopt out of biology but theology. Adopted people, adopt people. Chosen people, choose people. That's us! The author affirmed that adoption is a spiritual battle because satan wants nothing to do with brokenness being loved and healed through adoption. Josh is always saying and telling others, we adopt because God adopted us. It is the Father's heart and it is showing the Gospel to the world. 

Another way I was so very encouraged was through my friend Rebecca. My dear friend had a horrible childhood and when I told her we were going to adopt again she was so, so happy and cried. I told her she was one of the reasons we were going to adopt. She thanked me because this child will be so loved. Her rejoicing with me was just what I needed. She didn't think we are crazy, even though we are 47 years old, she knew our family could love another child who needs our love. She text me later saying, "What's not to be excited about?! This baby that God has for you is going to be loved beyond measure and that my dear friend makes my heart so happy." A few weeks later I shared with her that moving back to Uganda made me feel like I can't do this. She encouraged me that I can. All I was called to do was love this child and she said I was made to love.

Once we knew we were adopting we began to pray for our child. When we began the process til we get back to the States is 9 months, so it just may be that God called us the same time He was creating His child. And this baby has been prayed over each day of his life. Beautiful. I love hearing Josh pray for our baby and our kids, but I find it very powerful when I pray. The first time I prayed for him it felt like a spiritual victory and declaration. This baby is the Lords, God is the author of his life, He is making him, He is with him in the unseen place, He knows the plan for him, He protects him, forms him, loves him, this baby is God's child! So, no weapon formed against him will prosper! No trauma, pain or lies in Jesus name. We pray for the birth mother to love this child and do loving things for her baby. We pray she and birth father come to know the Lord through this life. Our child is God's child and He will never leave him and will always and forever love him. Thank you God for Your promises! We trust You.

Please join us in praying for our baby and for the Lord to prepare us. We plan to come back to Michigan the first of August. We will have a short home study on the house we will be staying in and then we will be ready to welcome our baby home. Of course we don't know God's timing, but we'll be ready in August. If the adoption is a safe delivery, which is how we got our precious Makai, we will get a call from Adoption Associates and have 24 hours to go to the hospital to get our baby. (A safe delivery in Michigan is when the birthmother can tell the hospital she cannot care for this child, her rights are terminated and the child will go right into an adoptive family, no foster care.) Big changes coming! Thanks for praying with us.

We're Back in Uganda

Hello from Uganda! This post is quite late, but adjusting back takes time! Transitioning from Michigan to our village in Uganda is a big change. Not to mention packing up and storing away one house, to unpack and restart our home here. And then there are all the emotions involved in the goodbyes and hellos. It can be heavy to do all of that for a whole family.  

Honestly, life in the village in Uganda is a lot more work than living in Michigan. Life takes a lot of time here. There are daily water needs, solar upkeep, insect battles, market runs (it isn't Meijers!), chaos and traumas of going to town, making food from scratch, homeschooling, sweeping out the daily dust, greeting people, ministry, heat... I'm not trying to complain, just trying to explain the realities of life here. It is an adjustment.

I am so thankful my kids did really well with it. We all love our home. The kids love their friends here and the sports, games, and youth group they have with them. They also get involved in village life which makes me proud. They even like the new homeschool curriculum we are doing. Yay!

I'm the one who seems to struggle more with life here. I do love our home, but I have no one to share it with. (Yes, I have a village of people around me, but there are so many cultural differences and language barriers.) I love hospitality and blessing people with a sanctuary. Home is my place of discipleship. I am SO thankful I still have a family to almost fill it! I think I am saying, it can be very lonely in the village. 

Life is routine, which is a great thing, but it's extreme. We go from too much in Michigan and a very full calendar to an empty calendar and weeks of nowhere I need to go. Don't get me wrong, I have plenty to do most days, but our social and event schedule is lacking. I'm adjusting to the rhythm of village life, but it is a change that takes time.

I also found myself very annoyed with the culture and people, which isn't a great sign, but true. I again saw all the yuck, chaos, evil, wrong, mean and ugly things. It can feel like nothing changes. The same poverty we left is here, the same sin and evil seems to dominate, the same ancient ways they are trapped in, the same injustices and corruption...how does a country run like this?! Everyone seems selfish. Does anyone here value life? Watching people drive especially on motorcycles is the prime evidence of both! Then driving back home from the city we saw a crowd up ahead - that is never good. We had the kids close their eyes, but Josh and I saw a school kid had been hit by a car and was laying on the side of the road. I didn't look to see if he was dead or still alive. Whoever hit him was long gone because truth is they could be killed by mob justice. But what I did see was hundreds of people, young and old, running towards the scene. Not to help but to see. With smiles and laughing as they went to see. What is that?!?! What causes a culture to want see pain, hurt, gore? There is no value of life and no innocence. It just seemed to me plain evil.

And then all the little daily things. Like being stared at, laughed at, touched... Are kids taught anything? Our definition of rude is so different. The trash they throw everywhere, breaking and cut down trees, hurting animals... Stewardship of God's world is lacking! And the extreme volume on the speakers at church that ruin worship - and our ears. It makes Makai (ok all most of us) not want to go to worship and mad when we do. It is just noise! And then there are all the men who say things and look at Emalai and even me! That is absolutely wrong! 

I know I can't begin to understand. I didn't grow up in poverty, having to survive every day, in this culture or apart from Christ. So, what do I do with all of it?  

I want to hide away in my house, go to sleep and keep dreaming about being somewhere else, but thankfully I chose to go to God. He's here, He knows, He is in control, He is at work. I choose to forgive so my heart can be free. And to trust God. He hates the sin and pain too and He longs for all His children to return to Him, to know Him and obey His ways. I thank Him for all the transformation He has done. And remember God is at work!

I have also chosen to go through Experience God by Blackaby. It is as amazing as it was 25 years ago when I did it! God has reminded me He is always at work and He invites us to join in as His instrument He wants to use. I pray I choose to join God where He is at work here, instead of being angry and running away :). 

Other than that, I was very thankful we found our home, truck, FIC team, neighbors and church all doing well. God has been faithful keeping our place, and His people and the ministry here. These people remind me of all God has done, the transformation that has taken place, how much God loves them, the beauty of their faith and that there is hope.

In case that didn't convince you that I don't hate everything here, let me share a few other things I am grateful for here. I love the nature and beauty of the village. The peaceful nights with all the sounds of nature. I love sitting on our porch having time with God on quiet mornings looking out at tropical plants and birds singing. The sound of rain. I like that our widows are always open, people are always walking by and say hi, and friends stop by to greet us.

Here are some pictures that will speak more than my words can. Thank you for all your prayers!

One more thing. This post is from Thrive, a ministry for missionary women, on transitions. I think it put it into words quite well. OK To Be a Hot Mess https://mailchi.mp/thriveministry/ok-to-be-a-hot-mess2?e=316b9af497

After driving in a snow storm to the airport, we were as ready as we could be to go. However, you never know how check in will go. It can be a bit stressful, but God is with us and provides.

Overnight in Qatar

Arrived in Uganda!
 And thankful it we feel good, it feels good to be back and familiar instead of foreign.

Packing ten luggage pieces for travel.

Oh man, now that's the Uganda we know.

Yup that's 100degrees!

Sights traveling in Uganda

Welcome Home!

Our friends welcomed us back with a Ugandan meal.

Our first day back was the monthly day of prayer for the FIC team.
Good to see everyone, but we lost one teacher, Tom, to a sudden death. Very sad.

Makai put up his new trampoline right away.

                                        

Back to life. Evening time is play time outside when it is cooler.

Makai trying Luka's weights.

Emalai is so happy to be back to her village life!

Back to homeschooling. Thankful it is going well, but is a full time job.

Makai turned 6!

He got a new bike!

He wanted Indian food for his birthday meal.

We thank God for Makai!
He thinks deeply. He has been thinking a lot about adoption lately and growing in his faith. When we read him his birthday cards and told him how much we love him, he suddenly wept and clung to Josh. It was a precious moment and Makai was deeply touched by our love.
A couple days later on his adoption day, we celebrated and shared why we were thankful for Makai. That night when we put Makai to bed he said, "Thanks for adopting me!" That was one of the sweetest moments of my life. Thank you God for Makai and choosing us to be his forever family!

We have been blessed with early rains this year (thank you God!!!), and Makai has been enjoying the mud puddles, plowing and planting. 

Makai's Kindergarten at HCS raised money at Christmas for seeds for the FIC team. We were able to get g-nuts (peanuts) for everyone to plant. This is a huge blessing to their families! Pray for continued rains and a bountiful harvest.

Emalai loves helping her friends in the garden.

Luka and his friends have enjoyed playing volleyball each week at church, but they have to play off all the trees there, so the boys built a new court outside of our front yard.

Makai helping a friend.

Emalai greeting our neighbor.